It's so nice sitting very still, in a room where no one else can feel the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok. Sunlight shining through my window, let's me know that I'm still alive Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool. Paint my face in shades of blood and grey and take a seat right next to me Well I should've known that you were a killer. But now I'm dead. A gaping hole, shot through my heart A lost connection from your poison dart Shot from your toun...

Tonight I made the mistake of getting out my box of stuff that has everything from Ben and I's relationship in it, thinking I have moved on enough to look through it without ending up a teary-eyed mess. Was I ever wrong. It has just left me more confused about how things could go from being so perfect to being so heartbreaking. In the letters he wrote me from basic it is sooo cute how crazy he was about me. Even with all he had to do he found time to write me letters almost every day, and...